Counting Stones

Is there something that I can't see? Something that just keeps haunting me A stranger to the backs of my hands So hard to explain, when you don't understand No I don't know what I'm doing Tell me what I've become Cause I'm taking myself for granted So scared I'm giving up I never thought that you could love me I never know what I deserve I reach for things so far above me To find out what I'm worth This time, I want to break This time, I want to break I can see right through the ground And I'm counting every single stone That’s how far I let you get me down I'm not giving up, I'm letting go I don't know what I'm supposed to do I can't go through this again I'm not sure I could ever love you The way I always did This time, I want you to break This time, I want you to break Cause I've held my head up for so long I've had all I can take This time, I want you to break I won't allow myself to tell you I won't allow myself to trust you I won't allow myself to give in I can't allow myself to love you The walls are falling down around us The walls are falling down again I won't allow myself to tell you But I don't want to see the end This time, I want to break This time, I want you to break This time, I want it all to break