Penance

I watch the clock hands go by, time after time I dream of leaving this place If I could leave the past behind Then I would just fade away, and cease to exist Well, it would cleanse all my pain It's a shame that I ever lived The Devil on my shoulder, he whispers to me And dribbles such a never-ending cacophony Into my ear to blind the joy that tries to reach out to me Such a dulcet suffering, why can't anyone see? Penance, a lesson in misery You studied my rise as you watched my fall I wrote my love in the cracks of the cracks of the wall You'll read that dying in vain, it was as good as it looked In a forget-me-not written in the spine of a book I've wasted my time falling in love With the thought of falling in love with someone Am I killing time, or killing myself? I think I'm killing myself sometimes, oh Penance, a lesson in misery Penance, a lesson in misery You studied my rise as you watched my fall I wrote my love in the cracks of the cracks of the wall You'll read that dying in vain, it was as good as it looked In a forget-me-not written in the spine of a book Well, I could never grow trees Still, I planted my seeds An sadly, you will see Eternal sunshine won't blossom me I am enough to feel happiness and love It's hard to say out loud, "I deserve to be happy now" Well, I deserve to be happy now You, penance, a lesson in misery Well, I deserve to be happy now