Scratch the Vein

I can't eat and I can't sleep Where am I going, who will come with me? The signs are there for all to see But I am blinded by my enmity I cut the lines and I cut my losses No one knows what my loss truly is I'll scratch the vein despite what it could mean I need this pain inside to keep me free I'm hooked on drugs, they are hooked on hope All I think about is tightening the rope I fear no fear, because no fear I see All of this time, the fear has been deep within me In all my life, I'm forgetting to live What would I give, is be clear of the things I'm yet to forgive As the wounds scab over The scars are there as proof you're not sober My world is plagued with disconnect I will ignore what's being thrown at me Every drop the money just bleeds The thing that matters is the fix I need I cut the lines and I cut my losses No one knows what my loss truly is I'll scratch the vein despite what it could mean I need this pain inside to keep me free I'm hooked on drugs, they are hooked on hope All I think about is tightening the rope I fear no fear, because no fear I see All of this time, the fear has been deep within me Deep within me I will break free of this hold It's time to change my own mould My days are getting brighter still The shadow controlled My poison picked for far too long I believed I was gone A soul dimmed of all it shone My heart still beats on I kept my past inside the present And dwelled on it all Time to prove I'm made of gold Before my kingdom falls