Manic Depressive

In my mind's eye You throw wickedness at me I'm just a toy to you I bring no real joy to you The way I see it You don't want me here no more You want a hole in my forehead And blood pouring on the floor Cuz I'm so dirty Fuckin' dirty and shoddy I want up out of this body That's hated by everybody Sometimes I don't know why I continue to try It's so much easier to die Than to get by Than to get by Than to get by If I'm gonna die I'm taking you with me Get you and get me We can be bloody If I'm gonna fly I'm gonna succeed Take you and get me We can be bloody Sometimes I don't know why I continue to try It's so much easier to die Than to get by Than to get by Than to get by I don't wanna leave my house Don't wanna open my mouth Don't wanna read my mail Don't wanna meet with pals I don't wanna fuck shit up Don't wanna fuckin' get up Don't wanna take up space Don't want your time to waste I don't wanna fight this back Just wanna fade to black Don't wanna turn to faith Or wanna burn at stakes I don't wanna build my life I wanna bloody my knife Don't wanna grab the phone Don't wanna leave this room I don't wanna talk with you I'm fuckin' stalkin' you Don't wanna fix myself I wanna nix myself I don't wanna try to change Just wanna fry my brains Don't wanna slow shit down I wanna throw shit around I don't wanna run nowhere Don't want no one to care Don't want another crack at it I'd rather be a crack addict I don't wanna look for help Don't wanna help myself I don't wanna even try To get by... To get by... And to get by... and to get by... and to get by... and to get by.