Ascending/FALLING

- Part 1 - [Verse] Uh, uh I started from the bottom, now we here Where? Nowhere Ten toes planted still, shoot at will, hope it kills Spray and pray the days away until it pays the bills I'm not sure what's real, both hands on the wheel Being dead's my only fuckin' skill Could be starrin' in a movie, but I feel retarded And the mirror tellin' me that I am not a role model My whole life or the beer bottles My whole life or the lost lottos Leave that bitch in the hotel lobby and don't look back, that's my motto But lately I been fallin' for these hoes Got this one girl, think she mean my whole world Come to think about it, never felt in a minute Come to think about it, never fell for a woman Legitimately grittin' my teeth Losin' sleep, jealousy, balls deep in grief How am I gettin' soft? Nah, I got a hard-on Maybe I just need relief So conflicted lately, should I call her? Maybe Should I call her "baby"? Thinkin' is killin' me, my sickenin' thoughts are gettin' the best of me As for the rest of me, my whole body feelin' numb I been crumblin' to crumbs, I'm feelin' dumb This shit is daily routine now Got a feelin' it's gonna go down south I been in it for a minute Now I'm thinkin' that there's never been a moment in my life like this Could it be forever? Could I die like this? Can I really live my whole life like this? [Bridge] Goddamn SAGE! - Part 2 - [Verse] Fallin' like a landslide This downward spiral that is life on the west side Got eyes wide allnight Fuck is California dreamin' if I'm never really sleepin'? I- Might take my own life Never tried much, but I'll try once if that's fine High, left her last night These bad decisions fightin' demons, out my mind Get out my head, I need some head, I lost my head, get out my bed I'm tired o' sex, I'm tired o' textin', head on my chest My baby rest and I start to regret Everything I ever did and everything I didn't do Are we really something? Do I really mean a thing to you? I could say a thing or two if I ever spoke to you Funny we're together, but I'm still afraid to talk to you Plus, I think you scared of me when I'm makin' love to you Is that all we are? Is that all we are? Are we all scared of the dark? Scared of this locked box? Paired or we not, should we really just stop? [Outro] Just empty your mind Be formless, shapeless Like water