Champ

That hoodie was the best thing to happen to me Like the one thing that you salvage from a house fire When you dropped me at her house 'cause I'm just too much to deal with I'm the last kid that should be around a lighter And lying's such a chore, but the truth feels so wrong And every turn I make just keeps me from getting where I want But when I confide in her, I tear apart the earth There's somebody who has it ten times worse There's no time left to pity and I see it in my friends And they all look so much older than me But tonight I'm feeling brave, I think I'll act my age Until a kid says that there's something wrong with me And sometimes the smoke smells good Leave the window open when it's freezing cold I know When you left me home alone, when you left for your award show I ditched you guys and died, laid in the snow Spent too many nights Pinching my sides wondering if I'm living in a dream When I don't know who to ask I think that I'll just pass, like, maybe I'll just figure it out myself Butterflies inside me, they turn into tapeworms And I stay awake 'till my stomach hurts So when it's 4 AM and I can't eat anything I'll wake up too late and get what I deserve And I know, I told you two weeks, but it's been seventeen years And every time I sing they close their ears It's all in my head, it's cheesy but it's true If I could, I'd blame it all on you Sometimes I'd try to talk, and nothing comes out And most of my memories aren't how they really were I'm slipping on the line, I'm confused all the time When you go to claim your bags, don't claim what's mine And sometimes the smoke smells good Leave the window open when it's freezing cold I know When you left me home alone, when you left for your award show I ditched you guys and died, laid in the snow I have this funny dream that I moved to Bombay Beach And I'm never seen or heard from again Won't have to watch out for sharks swimming in the Salton Sea Even though I'm more than sure that one just bit me And I've been performing poorly, but it's so hard to be honest She's been threatening that I go get some help When I picture your face it comes up as someone else Someone who's treated me the same way