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[Pop's Voicemails] Aye Jared ¿que paso hijo? Te estamos esperando ¿Puedo contar contigo? Necesito salir hijo, apurate por favor ¿Que onda Jared, vas ha hacer otra vez las mismas pinches mamadas de dejarte denigrar por pendejos wey? Cuando escuches este mensaje llamame pa tras. ¿okay? Aye Jared, ¿donde y con quien hijo de su puta madre estas cabron?! ¡Contesta wey que estamos preocupados por ti pendejo! Jared, no seas gacho hijo, por favor contestame, por favor. Okay? [Verse] Contradicting flaws and features The enigma , of my demeanor I plan to solve and answer The dilemma , of the dreamer To go deeper in rabbit holes Or drop it , not get in between that Cause the grass, that grew, in my field Of awareness, always seemed so greener (Shift) Until I felt An eager Ego-tistical Mystical Fist to wall Thirst to know What cursed us all To hurt our souls And bleed out And once I do Be a Redeemer And learn what Osho, Buddha Lao Tzu and Yeshua knew And use that Truth To change my view Make tunes Fightin for freedom Fightin demons Feedin off the fear To,fully forgive em For givin "hideous , hidden Incisions, in the back As bad, decisions When I was faded Addicted and afflicted With a split, in my jaded Inflated Fake self, that I hated Tried, to escape it But they, invaded My sedated, cognition Insisting, that my ,disposition To listen , to wisdom , and live it Was reason ,enough For livid Dim witted Spirits to Send hitters , to stiffen, and get rid of me Putting me In a position , to intervene With ,the mission To feel the beat And fill, the blanks With real ,shit to speak" Typa, vibe (Shift) A straight up, sacrifice To reach higher heights For a harder fall , from despite It's hard to fold, what I write Like I used do with notes Back in High ,School Where I tried to Make blind moves Following idols Seekin survival Friends turned to rivals Balls turned to rifles Calls into set ups Speaker on , to frame the way ,I move That he say ,she say bullshit And I just felt, lied to Puttin bugs in ears Of what I do Instigatin Shouldn't move with player hatin Snakes , so it's my fault And that dark cloud Followed me , everywhere I'd go I know.... (Shift) And I didn't want that vibe I've never been, about that life I Never claimed ,with pride to ride And die , for those kinda ties Made ,a paradigm ,fully aligned With the kind of, kind Effect In time I want to, leave behind Until then, we gon have to grind I've polished the craft, the knife And mind, to not work 9 to 5s and If the limit, is the sky I can't ,and won't stop flying Cause there's ,unlimited possibilities To shine,and help around And Im commited to this A livin the limitless, potential of my sound So now.... (Shift) Go sharpen the skill We seek ,to quench The thirst , for, true life Through that ,which has appeal And at the ,same time Contribute, to life , all while , It pays, the bills And not , knowing how , to go About it , and settle, for the Short end , of these deals Kills Us deep inside And not ,to mention All while movin' through the field While we battle, all these tensions Between compassion for others And havin' selfish ,bad intentions Manouver through the noise Static and fashion, that be trending To be reckless ,mindless, heartless And to just , not give a fuck Until what,we wish on others Comes back to, affect ,the ones we love (Shift) I've been down I've been up I've been right I've been wrong Ive been fly I've been stuck I've been divine I've been corrupt I've been high I've been munchies satisfied , and not too proud about Stoopin low at times Cause I've been hungry ,all my life I've been this way I've been in love I've been betrayed I've been set up By people I forgave, the same day They tried ,to fuck me up And over Its over But it's not too late Now, all I ask Is for them,just to stay away People that have prayed For the day, that I lose my way I still ,meditate For their, peace Out of hope And out of faith Out of love & Out of Hate Out of wrath & Out of pain Out for gain For more ,of the same You know what I'm saying? (Shift) Sometimes, after something different But it don't change In this game of life It's the same mission, ona different day The cravin ,for ,tasting, and gainin, sum novelty Livin in, Pleasure Paradise, in Pain and Poverty Cause I have , Family and Soul But no ,private property Run around, actin a fool I feel ,the weight, on top of me Out for Redemption Ina fork road, before,its possibly Too late , to give em heaven Disguised as hell , sloppily This that sloppy , probably What you needed At the time it came I peep , and hope they'll change ,like I did They recognize, I'm not the same To me, everything is game But Why would I sell it, for fame? Telling what I know, what I've done What I've felt and , what I've seen In the extra-ordinary ,dream Like situations, that have been Chapters ,in my life Flashbacks, like , Spielberg Movie scenes Leadin, to a destination That God Has planned out ,for me (Shift) I can't control ,or change the world But I ,can change my way of being And I can change ,my way of seeing And I can, change the way I think And I can change And I will change The essence ,that my presence brings I can't control ,or change the world But I can , change the way I live And take control of how I think I will control the way I live And I will change the way I think And flip the script , and give ,the gift And I can still, keep movin forward And leave behind, what I'll forgive (Shift) It serves no purpose, to dig up The past, except to reminisce I gotta keep on movin forward And stay countin, how I'm blessed (Shift) & I can, do that I mean , I will do that I affirm One letter , One word Could change your world And a new map A new life, Like the snap Of a finger ,Could just emerge You think to kill , or take a life Takes some nerve What about givin birth To the life ,you recognize Deep down , in your heart , you deserve Thinking that the problem , is out there When it's in her It's in him ,it's in them Listen here Lets pretend To not understand And play dumb To not ,know better I see a scared lil child In the, eyes, of a killer I feel pain , and injustice In the, heart , of liver I see Broken kids Broken spirits Broken parents Broken mirrors Broken marriage Low ,percentage Of any attempt of Fixin, in us Why our loved ones, gotta die Till we recognize , The Lord's within us Look at those ,that we despise As windows ,but never, as mirrors We're all cut ,from different cloths But-from-the, same hand, holding them scissors Movin through life, learnin to be And grow, to make, wiser decisions In his eyes , and the forgiveness of his heart We're all, imperfect sinners And we'll keep ,letting him speak And live through us ,until we're all delivered [Pops Voicemail] Aye hijo, por que no me quieres contestar cocho? Contestame por favor, dejarme saber como estas okay , ya no andes por las tardes , por favor hijo , dejame saber nada mas