Runnin' (Incomplete)

[Intro] Runnin', runnin', runnin' runnin' Runnin', runnin', runnin' [Verse] I, reflect on the times of the past, when I was growing up Zero to twelve I was naive, demeanour told enough Two older brothers with music and they would show me stuff With family fights, blasting music’s how I’d be holding up Junior school I’d steal lines, act like I’m barring out But on the side I’d write my own but then discard em out Lyrics from best shit ever turned into worst shit For years that was my motivation to get this perfect High school came, year 7 I was a lonely cunt Sitting on my locker by myself but I was only young Looking back it was more a choice, kinda faking bruh Fishing for sympathy instead of bеing brave enough to make a friеnd Became toxic and turned negative Black balled myself and killed relationships with friends I miss Could never get it back but now I know better Meanwhile, rap was my secret till that switched up in November- -2017 I would show it to some people My bars were trash but still they called it lethal Confidence boost, now I’m recording Showed one of my tracks to my one of my brothers and it sent him up in orbit Brother went on to link with his friend who’s recording He gave me a shot, but my verse was the opposite of awesome But at time we thought I torched it Let me borrow the mic and to this day I still got it that’s why I’m fuckin' balling A couple years go by, I’m turning astounding Messed around with a couple girls but we don’t talk about em On three suspensions so I’m on thin ice Got my frustrations out writing then rocking the mic But then my heart turned funny, but I acted alright Til one night my heart was beating irregular, holding onto life Got medication that I took every day Stopping me from eating, I wished the fucking pain would go away At a mate’s party, met this kid named Callan Then I met his friend Chronic and turns they’re both rapping Was hanging out Nap$ then I showed him a track and he was spazzing Over ecstatic, we set a date to make a track but um Well, got told I’m having a procedure April 14th, it was exactly in a week And uh, chance of dying is there and I was thinking Cause this could be the end of me, was hoping I was tweaking Made the revelation I’d be a different man Be what I never had to others, made a couple plans Spent the next couple days with the friends I had accumulated Told em the news, we were crying and it’s true I was shaken Procedure day, I told my family I love em Then a couple hours later I’m at the hospital bugging Fresh sixteen going under anaesthetics As they stuck the wire in my groin to zap my heart, I’m drowsy headed Saw my dead grandparents and I cried on them Told me some things and I really just thought I died with them But then I woke up with an oxygen mask And when I came to I thought "Thank God I didn’t pass" Got home then got a certain beat right Then the next day we made FBY Started OxyMorons, it was dream-like One year now, felt like such a brief time I’m only human but I’m tryna be better Got attachment issues but it’s better to love than never Tryna make cheddar so I get my fam set up When I do what I gotta do, don’t care bout where I end up And I can’t live becoming a slave Word to Nap$, still tryna have the dumbest of days Scared to face my problems, still tucking away But deep down yeah I know [Refrain: The Pharcyde Sample] Can't keep runnin' away Can't keep runnin' away Can't keep runnin' away Can't keep runnin' away [Outro] Can't keep, runnin' away Even though I'm still tucking away Can't keep, runnin' away Even though I'm still tucking away Can't keep, runnin' away Even though I'm still tucking away Can't keep, runnin' away Can't keep, runnin' away-ay-ay-ay Yeah