Almost Grown

My parents split up in the first grade My father never did come back My sister liked John Travolta But I wanted Billy Jack Throwing things off of the rooftops 40 buildings all the same My mother took a job as a waitress Swimming in the divorce age When you're all alone And you're all alone When you're all alone and you're almost grown Me and Holly snuck into night clubs The politics of punk rock church We were so idealistic But somehow only saw the worst When you're young and violent sick and silent Hoping just to be admired Water seeks its level of pain And you're all alone And you're all alone And you're all alone And you're almost grown Some old friends retired too But they still laugh about me and you My mother's ashes went into the ocean Scattered on a windy day She used to like Frank Sinatra Cigarettes and JFK Some retired some expired some were meant To be admired for a moment at a young age But I don't care what they say others went and got away I just want to see her again When you're all alone When you're all alone When you're all alone You're almost grown When you're all alone and your heart is stone