I Sit in Parks

I sit in parks It breaks my heart 'cause I see just how far I am From the things that I want Dad brought the picnic Mom brought the sunscreen Two kids are laughing and crying on red swings We look about the same age But we don't have same Saturdays Did I miss it By now is it A lucid dream, is it my fault For chasing things a body clock Doesn't wait for I did the damn tour It's what I wanted, what I got I spun around and then I stopped And wonder if I missed the mark So, I sit in parks Sunglasses dark and I Hit the vape, hallucinate a nursery with Noah's Ark They lay on a blanket And how lovely, he loves her I wonder if she wants my freedom Like I want to be a mother But Rolling Stone says I'm on the right road So, I refill my Lexapro Thinking Did I miss it By now is it A lucid dream, is it my fault For chasing things a body clock Doesn't wait for I did the damn tour It's what I wanted, what I got I spun around and then I stopped And wonder if I missed the mark So, I sit in parks Checking benchmarks Tarryn's due in June The album's due in March