I Sit in Parks

I sit in parks
It breaks my heart 'cause I see just how far I am
From the things that I want

Dad brought the picnic
Mom brought the sunscreen
Two kids are laughing and crying on red swings
We look about the same age
But we don't have same Saturdays

Did I miss it
By now is it
A lucid dream, is it my fault
For chasing things a body clock
Doesn't wait for
I did the damn tour
It's what I wanted, what I got
I spun around and then I stopped
And wonder if I missed the mark

So, I sit in parks
Sunglasses dark and I
Hit the vape, hallucinate a nursery with Noah's Ark
They lay on a blanket
And how lovely, he loves her
I wonder if she wants my freedom
Like I want to be a mother
But Rolling Stone says I'm on the right road
So, I refill my Lexapro
Thinking

Did I miss it
By now is it
A lucid dream, is it my fault
For chasing things a body clock
Doesn't wait for
I did the damn tour
It's what I wanted, what I got
I spun around and then I stopped
And wonder if I missed the mark

So, I sit in parks
Checking benchmarks Tarryn's due in June
The album's due in March