(Intro)
I am lost, I've been accosted by the forces of my pride
I am clueless, I am useless and I've got no hole to hide in don't know
Happy, sad, which is worse? And there's a dead girl's name on my T-Shirt
(Verse 1)
My list of life goals is long and it was a tightrope that I was walking on
Pressure surmounting and I'm just amounting to nothing, need to continue the counting
Waiting for something to come when I know it won't be like I dreamt and I would have spent precious time that I'll never get back because you've only got one shot, deliver attack
People like extroverts, I'm just the next best girl till someone else works
Three cheers for a positive attitude, internally I shout "What's the matter with you?!"
I'm not always an optimist, steady on the outside but I'm not on top of it
My aspirations can't be for focus or set so high in a (?) take a spill off this preconceptions all I'm left with is no direction, expecting tomorrow's gonna bring something better than today
But the day's far by and the sky's stayed gray
Fatigued, I'm on a siege but my doubts in the clouds, hang low
And I'm alone in my room, this tomb is full of silence
Just me, myself, and I
Second guessing my blessing is missing sitting at my desk just stressing, plotting all my stepping stones
Gotta make a stack of dough before I turn into a sack of bones
(Chorus)
I am lost, I've been accosted by the forces of my pride
I am clueless, I am useless and I've got no hole to hide in don't know
Happy, sad, which is worse? And there's a dead girl's name on my T-Shirt
(Verse 2)
I was hoping that I wouldn't have to think about growing up
Fairy god mother gonna show up with a golden platter telling me that I'm set for life, all I gotta do's enjoy the ride
Subconsciously I believed I'd be free of the demons that plague a quarter life crisis (?) no, I will not be that you cannot stop me
But where am I headed?
I'm sick of my own surprises, my own surprises
Guises of people I see on TV, alive but what is this life and what does it mean to me?
The questions roll like raindrops on windshields
Crowds full of people who does this (?) can still searching for images that I was made in walls of false so beaten they cave in
People are appeased by Monday, future needed know is music the root for me?
4 am I'm up again, see a re-envisioning failure up ahead
But I slap on a smile and a happy face
Gushing, saying "Everything's going just great."
What happened to my confidence? Now it's just discord
Know it could be worse but this wasn't what I wished for
Wasn't what I wished for. Wasn't what I wished for, wasn't what I wished for
Entertaining fantasies, record labels handing me, all my wishes granted as I rebel in my vanity, decisions make my stomach ache and and I'm breaking promises to (?) I'll just stick to what I think I felt
How can I follow my intuition when I've got no true position?
I'm just drifting, just drifting
I am lost, I am exhausted, and I don't know where to go
I am foolish, I am useless, and I've got no room to grow
I'm a stranger in my own damn mind and I don't know what I came to find, still there's people dying
(Chorus)
I am lost, I've been accosted by the forces of my pride
I am clueless, I am useless and I've got no hole to hide in don't know
Happy, sad, which is worse? And there's a dead girl's name on my T-Shirt
