Rainfall

2015 I nearly died Looked the brudda in his eyes Told him if you're gonna do it, do it I was full of pride Thank God he let it slide Coulda seen my mother cry Coulda gotten 25 Just another brother's life Cas came and blessed the beef On a south London street I was doing uni then I was probably 23 Just another wannabe What you sow is what you reap Smiling on the outside But I was crying underneath 2020 Christmas eve Swear down it wasn't me Had a mental breakdown Something you don't wanna see Knowing that I had a gift I ain't talking duty free Brothers like a pack of sharks Probably should of let it be Wasn't tryna leave a scar Blood is what they wanna see Mothеr used to speak her mind Hoping that hеr son achieved To hear your son is dead and gone Is something you don't wanna read But I was fully on the grind Tryna make some honest p's My family looking at me like a cheque How'm I supposed to feel? Guess this was the life I kinda chose So imma keep it real Chicks looking at me like a cheque How'm I supposed to feel? They ain't even showed me my respect Lemme close this deal I hate the feeling that my worth Was in what I made Lately it's been having me disturbed It's another day Couple times it coulda took a turn That's a close escape Been a minute since I hit the church I know I need to pray Long time since we was on the curb Tryna find a way A man really only has his word and his father's name This boy said my music saved his life Don't know what to say Days passed made it through the stress Now it's brighter days Times when I was at my worst at my mother's place Seems like they was getting theirs mine was coming late Whether you was second or your first It's another race Just know when you plant the seeds Don't forget the rain