Translucent

In situations where I've been walking the fence I've been trying to find the dialect for weeks on end With my words in a twist and an expression that fits All transparency is lost amongst the lions of men Talkin to myself at your apartment I wish that you'd call out to me And tell me all this heartache from who I am Will pass and pass and That it'd fulfill you to know That I've been misleading I've been so deceiving I've been Sitting back watching it fade for a little while In situations where my hearts divided in 10s Hardly finding reasons just to rise from my bed Like my tongue is wrapped in cellophane Subbing words displacing pain Cause when is fate decided by the honest of man? Talkin to myself at your apartment I wish that you'd call out to me And tell me all this heartache from who I am will pass and pass and That it'd fulfill you to know That I've been misleading I've been so deceiving I've been sitting back watching it fade for a little while Oh it'd fulfill you to know The words seem to leave me When I tell you how I'm feeling If it gets me through this conversation then it's fine Fractures in code Excuses, lies and tropes Verdict says I am now what I'd once remand Would it fulfill you to know That I have been chasing, appalled Ive been embracing If I ended up with all but everything, is it fine?