Worship What I Hate

[Verse 1] I keep looking at myself in the mirror Hopin' it will change And I keep wishing for a brand-new body That I didn't have to blame I'm seein' every flaw, like a failure I'm usin' every cure, like a savior Like tryna build a church out of all my hurt When it really needs grace [Chorus] I gave all my time to nothin' I focused on who I was not who I'm becomin' My fears, they took up space My eyes couldn't look away I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate [Verse 2] Half a bottle of red just before bed Is the only way I dream Before I rеally wake up The first thing I touch is a button on a screen I'm not guilty of leavin', not stickin' around I'm guilty of stayin' and just chеckin' out Yeah, I kept my head down and really missed out On what's in front of me [Chorus] 'Cause I gave all my time to nothin' I focused on who I was, not who I'm becomin' My fears, they took up space My eyes couldn't look away I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate [Bridge] Why do the lies feel like the truth? Why do I do the things I do? Why do I fight so hard to keep my heart empty? [Chorus] 'Cause I gave so much time to nothing I focused on who I was, not who I'm becomin' My fears, they took up space My eyes couldn't look away I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate [Post-Chorus] I didn't even realize (Realize) I didn't even realize (Realize) I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate Didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate [Outro] (Ooh-ooh-ooh) (Ooh-ooh-ooh) Didn't even realize, no (Ooh-ooh-ooh) Didn't even realize, didn't know (Ooh-ooh-ooh) (Ooh-ooh-ooh) Mmm, yeah (Ooh-ooh-ooh) (Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh)