Randi

I give the punishment I take the brandishment I am the one so hard on me I am the implement I am the battered one (against? I give?) Myself to rape I stay out in the sun I am the one so pale Taking it all too hard Too serious and way too smart Too analytical Taking it on the chin? Holding it deep within Letting it hurt again Dare not to swell with pride Taking it on the chin Nothing here works out Nothing to cry about I've ruined it negative I killed it with my ? Clock my attention span The fingers of one hand I count down 3-2-1 And start all over again Nothing here works out I should be more secure Drink in the morning sun My work could turn to fun I give the punishment I take the brandishment I am so hard on me I am the implement