Loathe

Choking on the dirt that I've been force fed The population is bleeding me dry Swallow my pride as I watch the moonlight seep into my pores I only fear the end It happens over and over again Separation, it fucks with my head Bullshit, I am constantly fed Autophobia, I wish I was dead Fuck I try to hide the pain away On the edge of the precipice Never to see the light of day Cursed to be a nihilist Endless pits of fucking madness And I'm so afraid, the spiraling entity stuck in my brain Crafted an outward persona Threatening to tear me apart Feels like I've been sleeping Locked away from the world I've known Feels like the glass is breaking Set free as you lose control Choking on the dirt that I've been force fed The population is bleeding me dry Swallow my pride as I watch the moonlight seep into my pores I only fear the end It happens over and over again Separation, it fucks with my head Bullshit, I am constantly fed Autophobia, I wish I was dead Oh Helpless against the ever growing darkness Hopeless I can never escape It's out of my hands Not even screams can break this silence I can't stand myself Breathe I try to hide the pain away On the edge of the precipice Never to see the light of day Cursed to be a nihilist