How I'm Feeling Now (Orchestral Version)

Will you forgive me if I'm coming off a little bit obtuse? Well, it's been a minute now since I have had to tell the truth I know I can I won't Suppose I thought that by this moment I would have it figured out But instead, I tend to spend my days consumed by seeds of doubt I know I can I won't Oh, darling, it goes on and on and on Always, forever, 'til I'm barely holding on End of my tether and I know it won't be long It won't be long 'til it's gone So here's to my beautiful life That seems to leave me so unsatisfied No sense of self, but self-obsessed I'm always trapped inside my fucking head On and on and on, on and on and on On and on and on, on and on and on Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow If you were wondering how I'm feeling now" I try to tell myself my best days are the ones that lie ahead But I'm always looking back on things I wish I'd never said I know I can I won't Oh, darling, it goes on and on and on Always, forever, 'til I'm barely holding on End of my tether and I know it won't be long It won't be long 'til it's gone So here's to my beautiful life That seems to leave me so unsatisfied No sense of self, but self-obsessed I'm always trapped inside my fucking head On and on and on, on and on and on On and on and on, on and on and on Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow If you were wondering how I'm feeling now" I won't lie, I'm a mess, yeah But I'll get there No, I won't lie, I'm a mess, yeah But I'll get there So here's to my beautiful life That seems to leave me so unsatisfied No sense of self, but self-obsessed I'm always trapped inside my fucking head On and on and on, on and on and on On and on and on, on and on and on Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow If you were wondering how I'm feeling now"