What Will I Have

I want to cry but I feel nothing It's like I'm living life Behind this screen door If the rent's paid It don't matter how loud I scream It's kind of comforting that Everyone knows what I mean Still you don't got it like I do Still you don't know what I've been through Still going through it right now Die tryna figure out how If I don't get it right tonight I hope I still got tomorrow Living on borrowed time Nothing I've ever touched Was truly mine Saying you got my back but in time I'll find out you lying I'm Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Oh, y'all turned me Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold What will I have When the sun makes its rounds And the arms holding me Turn cold shoulders When the faces that looked Up and down Notice what I am now and Never again turn towards me When the house that I live in Burns down And we all have to leave In a hurry, empty handed What will I have When I notice I've never had anything But a facade I look at myself from above as Time moves in fast forward Wake, eat, pace, sleep Work, eat, sleep I catch with both hands Something tangible Mangled and dead But it's not what I wanted Nothing is ever enough I double in size I begged for something I forgot why I asked for at all I am all there is And y'all turned me Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Oh, y'all turned me Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold Stone cold What will I have When I notice I've never had anything But a facade I look at myself from above as Time moves in fast forward Wake, eat, pace, sleep Work, eat, sleep Wake, eat, pace, sleep Work, eat, sleep Wake, eat, pace, sleep Work, eat, sleep Wake, eat, pace, sleep Work, eat, sleep Wake, eat, pace, sleep Work, eat, sleep