Shame

Calling every force to get me out of this doubt pit Deeper than my cowboy boots figured out it’s No use fighting back against 1000 dead ideas I hear tiger balm playing back through the eons Forward slam Broken back Roundhouse kick Headbutt Upper cut the vision of a fear of a trepidation Blowing all the windows out the Subaru Outback All my fear released in the dealership but it was leased Little did I know I was free he had cut the leash But all I feel is shame Looking in the mirror I can’t even stand my face Looking at my body and I’m thinking what a waste And every time I hear my voice I’ve got nothing to say I’ve got nothing to say But all I feel is shame Looking in the mirror I can’t even stand my face Looking at my body and I’m thinking what a waste Because every time I hear my voice I’ve got nothing to say Not waiting on the day Everything I want will turn to milk and fade away Lose the grip you’re holding because nobody’s here to stay Wish that I could last forever living in a day Just living in a day But all I feel is shame Looking in the mirror I can’t even stand my face Looking at my body and I’m thinking what a waste And every time I hear my voice I’ve got nothing to say I’ve got nothing to say But all I feel is Forward slam Broken back Roundhouse kick Headbutt All that I can hear are the sounds from the deep And a fish in the tank with his eyes aimed it me And no matter how I yell he won’t ever talk to me I would give all that I got just to see what he sees But I’ll watch him float around so effortlessly Pick a stone up swimming past a plastic tree Then I look back at him and he grins back at me Middle finger up at his super white fish teeth But all I feel is shame Looking in the mirror I can’t even stand my face Looking at my body and I’m thinking what a waste And every time I hear my voice I’ve got nothing to say I’ve got nothing to say But all I feel is shame Looking in the mirror I can’t even stand my face Looking at my body and I’m thinking what a waste Because every time I hear my voice I’ve got nothing to say Not waiting on the day Everything I want will turn to milk and fade away Lose the grip you’re holding because nobody’s here to stay Wish that I could last forever living in a day Just living in a day But all I feel is shame