Control

[Verse 1] Oh, I ran once Took my fight across the ocean I thought if I could make my way Across the sea, I'd find a place Now I'm swallowed up By a city that doesn't give a fuck To whether I am up on time Or whether if I'm, well, alive And I'm so good, getting too good at hiding Too good at keeping to myself That I'm spiraling [Verse 2] I have fell before For some who have wanted me more Than I could've wanted them Some call it selfishness But I'm so scared I'm so scared of the voices They're telling me I'll end up alone [Verse 3] Oh I heard once You only love when you're lonely And you smile when you're hurting So it doesn't concern them But I'm so tired I'm just so tired of hiding I'm so tired of keeping to myself That I'm spiraling out of control I'm so tired of keeping to myself