firearm

I get high out the window And I don't tell my mom I mix you with my vodka And it turns me on There's a hole in my heart and I can't find the bullet But you sleep with the firearm I should've pulled it on you What a shame, I can see it all Now that we're through I get drunk with my friends Your name never comes up I tell strangers online That we broke up There's a hole in my heart and I hate that it's there 'Cause I liked to act like I really don't care But I do What a shame that I put up with you What a joke, was it all just an act? I hate that it took me so long to react You had me convinced that you loved me What a fucked up reality show Was it fame or the lack thereof? I just don't know You had me convinced that you loved me, oh I'm not sure you realize The pain that you caused I don't feel like talking But everyone else does There's a hole in my heart and I can't find the bullet But you sleep with the firearm I should've pulled it on you Now I don't have the energy to