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[Verse: Manga Saint Hilare] They don't get me, I don't get them either Feel like I don't fit in anywhere, I don't feature Any of the plans and patterns, I can't keep up With the in ting or the out ting either I'm in a class of my own, tryna learn new lessons With no aids or peers or teacher Too bad for the good youts, I was too good for the bad ones I couldn't really be around either Time passed, reality coming at me fast When I couldn't even get no breather Tryna get my thoughts together, wanna be better But my insecurities teamed up Oldest in my house, youngest in the crew I had to learn to be a leader I dived in too fast into a lot of things It's the curse of the hungry and eager I had a big heart in this cruel, small world Being colder, that made tings easier Lost love and my bad luck wouldn't ease up I was married to the fuckery with no prenup Couldn't be no dead beat yout on the ends Man, I swore to God I wouldn't be one Mum and Dad tryna pay these bills I was more concerned that my creps were greased up Should've been studying, I should've been saving I was on sets, though, tryna get wheel-ups Kinda went uni, sorta shot food Done telesales, was a part-time cleaner Nearly was a wasteman, I could've been a father She wasn't ready and I wasn't either All this time, man, everybody thinks that I'm gone All 'cause of "When I'm 'Ere" and "Heat Up" Oi, how wrong they were How lost I was I made her love me, then I got scared Then I locked her off She said I tried to break her 'cause I was broken Yeah, I probably was Look, I tried to be better, I had good intentions I swear to God I let things build up and I don't share They're just in my songs Take on everyone's issues and ignore my own I was all on my ones I was tirelessly trying to find my tribe 'Cause I don't belong I was looking for things That were right there around me, all along How could I get this so wrong? Look at all the fuckery that man ah dodged How could I not know that I was blessed When all the mandem were getting locked up? People around me had tings worse No excuse, I had to fix up And now it's all about growth Can't go back to who I once was Cuh grime nearly killed me And grime saved my life Grime gave me an in And grime kept me outside I don’t ask for acceptance I only ask for forgiveness And hope that I grow strong enough To remain myself at all times Still don't give one fuck about ends Ends never gave no fucks about me Certain quote unquote friends Can't spend time or come around me And I'm thankful for the ones that I've kept And all my loved ones that I don't see I don't want no fake dons calling me family My brother and my sister still don't speak Holding onto anger ain't cool You've got to get to know your niece Don't let things get too far She just started walking last week And to my brudda that's going through bare tings I pray that you find your peace Don't let all the anger consume you You won't be happy, you won't be free To all my exes I thought were the ones I'm happy we met but weren't meant to be All the mistakes that we made together I ain't gonna do the same with my queen I had to learn to let things go Can't help the things that weren't meant for me I can't spend my time looking back Cause I miss things that I'm yet to see To anybody feels that they're unheard To everyone who feels that they ain't seen Don't let your big heart get disheartened Don't ever discard your dreams To all my overlooked outsiders All them talented kings and queens Don't let the fact you were once lost Make you scared to take the lead, believe [Outro: JGrrey] Don't force it Like, for real Don't force it Don't try and hang with bad mind people you don't actually like Don't try and business with people that are, like, mad negative and you don't even like their energies See that one person? That one person that's always tryna put you down when other people are around Or make a joke out of your name Or try and have a joke on your behalf, to feed their ego? Dust them out Having no friends isn't a bad thing, you know? Being comfortable with your own company isn't a bad thing Being an outsider just lets you see inside a little bit clearer Not speaking too much lets you observe more And the less you talk, the more people can assume Some people talk too much Irony, she says But for real People have too much to say On Twitter, on Instagram, on Facebook, on Snapchat, on Instagram Story And yes, I'm a hypocrite 'cause I like to give people my opinion But I'm never giving people my opinion to put other people down, you understand? Be secure in who you are as person Walk into a room and be secure with who you are; your energies; your opinion; your state of mind That's who you are Don't let other people tarnish it, it's a waste of time I promise you that 2017, I had to have a spring clean of all these people that like to be my acquaintances If I haven't rang you in 2017, I don't business with you no more I am who I am and that's my choice, not yours JGrrey, two Rs, if you're nasty