Daffodils

I've been buying myself flowers Crowning myself my own king Hoping I can blindly make it better By pretending I didn't destroy everything Puttin' daffodils on fires and lavender on broken luck I'm pretending I'm not drowning in my self-destruct In my own fuck ups In everything that I've done I'm tryna hold myself up now Try hold myself up now Don't lean on me Please, don't lean on me I'm not the one you need, I'm Barely standing on my own Legs holding me, I've outgrown This weight I cannot hold, so don't Don't lean on me You've been begging me for pieces Things that I can't cut and paste Stick you back together while I'm holding all these tethers And I'm pulling myself in place Puttin' daffodils on fires and lavender on broken luck I'm pretending I'm not drowning in my self-destruct Can't find the words To let you know I'm hurting So I'll just let it all burn 'Cause I can't fix the things that I'm burning Don't lean on me Please, don't lean on me I'm not the one you need, I'm Barely standing on my own Legs holding me, I've outgrown This weight I cannot hold, so don't Don't lean on me Look at me sitting here talking to myself The only person I lean on is nobody else Who would've thought? Who would've thought? That pushing everyone away wouldn't make him wanna stay? So please Please don't lean on me Please don't lean 'Cause caring makes it worse and I don't wanna hurt, so Don't lean on me Please, please Don't lean on me