Selfish

All my friends say that I'm selfish Who's to say that they're wrong? I spent a good time being selfless Look at all the good it's done I had a tongue that wouldn't speak And a spine that wouldn't stand All that I learned from being selfless Who'd wish that on a man? All my friends they say I'm changing From the man I once was Hell, I can barely remember that boy A midnight lamp, a burning fuzz All my friends say I'm hasty With woebegone apologies I always took a certain pleasure In meeting everybody's needs But I learned myself in solitude I straightened up When the veil tore in two Chubby and thin-skinned But god, how I grew Oh god, how I grew All my friends say I'm crazy All the crazies call me friend All of the liars beg my pardon All of the beggars let me in None of my friends know my secrets And it's safer that way I guess I'm writing myself blank checks For when I choose to run away And I learned myself in solitude I straightened up When the veil tore in two Chubby and thin-skinned But god, how I grew Oh god, how I grew