Feel Shit

[Pre-Chorus: Merkules] First I breathe in the smoke, then I exhale slow 'Til there's nothing else left but the ashes From all this weed I blow to all these drinks I pour There ain't nothing else left but the ashes [Chorus: Merkules] I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) [Post-Chorus: Merkules] And I can't be sober when I'm alone A hundred missed calls in my phone I'm havin' withdrawals, leave me alone Leave me alone, I feel it in my bonеs, I hide it all inside [Verse 1: Merkules] I question mysеlf, am I runnin' from something? I put in the work, went from nothing to something I still gotta deal with these fucked up assumptions I'm drunk when in public, still chuggin' and numbin' I was at rock bottom and I cried for help So I had to take a break just to find myself Never been to Heaven, spent some time in Hell Inside my shell, revenge what I'm tryna smell I know it's all my fault, I'm the one to blame Instead of facin' those fears, I would run away Couldn't tell apart all the love and hate So fuck the fame, I guess it's my drug of taste I gotta clear my head and just hit restart Just did 25 shows and there's 15 more When the cycle repeats, it won't get me far So I hide my pain deep within these scars I got everybody sayin' I deserve to win But is it worth the regret? Is it worth the sins? It hurts within, I'm thinkin' bout my worth again I had to swim across the water 'cause I burnt the bridge So I try to get by, but I hide shit inside And I act like I'm havin' the time of my life And I can't see the darkness if I'm in the light So if silence is golden then I'll be all right [Pre-Chorus: Merkules] First I breathe in the smoke, then I exhale slow 'Til there's nothing else left but the ashes From all this weed I blow to all these drinks I pour There ain't nothing else left but the ashes [Chorus: Merkules] I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) [Verse 2: Jelly Roll] I been on the bottom with all of the maggots I relapsed again and fell off the wagon I guess I'm just hopin' that all of my habits Will finally help me to deal with the baggage I'm carryin' This life of sin I'm thinkin' again of all of the friends I ended up buryin' All of the dreams that I done seen perishin' Man, it's imperative I change the narrative Know what is wrong, knew all along deep in my heart, I'm tryin' to fly Why does it feel like I'm dyin' to live, but at the same I'm tryin' to die? Won't you help me, Lord? I know I been selfish, Lord I know I been wrong, but I feel like I been to Hell before I just pour another drink to try to take the pain away Wonderin', is today the day that I'ma change my ways? No amount of cocaine could ever keep me numb From the shit that I done done and the past I'm runnin' from [Pre-Chorus: Merkules] First I breathe in the smoke, then I exhale slow 'Til there's nothing else left but the ashes From all this weed I blow to all these drinks I pour There ain't nothing else left but the ashes [Chorus: Merkules] I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit) [Post-Chorus: Merkules] And I can't be sober when I'm alone A hundred missed calls in my phone I'm havin' withdrawals, leave me alone Leave me alone, I feel it in my bones, I hide it all inside