To Me

When a thought like a truck came crashing down the gate I held my hands up and I said, "Wait!" And I turned my head and caught the full light Of the headlights, moonbeams, high beams bright Am I stopped, or can I run? Can I stay, and can I fight? Am I lost? Have I won? Will I sleep well tonight? And I reach down deep in the dirt of me And I fling off the muck, and I sweat-soak the sheets I am not the person you thought that you would hear When you turned on the radio and I caught your ear I can be mean, I can be bold I am a woman growing old And all the losses punch a gut when the storm winds blow Why can't you be nice to me? I love you endlessly Everybody has regrets, everybody gets upset Everybody is a mess, everybody isn't yet The person that they thought they'd be Am I disappointing me? Why can't you be nice to me? I love you endlessly