Final Blow

What does it even mean? I feel bad for what I'm saying We're in-between And my heart's been aching So don't you see? It had a sting Writing down my graceful thoughts saying You're my everything So drown me under the light The last thing I want to do is fight But I need some time alone Say all of these things I hadn't known And I hope it was worth this I'm crying on the floor Yeah, you didn't deserve it But I can't do it anymore So wash out the sun with my made up rain And hope that the spark comes back again Will I know? Or was this meant to be the final blow? You said you thought of me But I'm still not sleeping To some degree It feels like I'm reaching For what's not therе but what's in my mind Taking all my chances to leave this all bеhind So drown me under the light The last thing I want to do is fight But I need some time alone Say all of these things I hadn't known And I hope it was worth this I'm crying on the floor Yeah, you didn't deserve it But I can't do it anymore I hope it was worth this I'm crying on the floor Yeah, you didn't deserve it But I can't do it anymore So wash out the sun with my made up rain And hope that the spark comes back again Will I know? Or was this meant to be the final blow?