Exit Plan

My head is a house with long halls Red lights, no doors Had to make it a home all by myself Always something to fix, dark thoughts Blue pills, tight grip When it's all that you know You get used to it I'm homesick from living with myself Made an exit plan, but I left it on the shelf I've been so obsessed with romanticizing death I know how the story ends But how do you live when you don't wanna die anymore? Just thinking out loud Thought I'd be gone by now So what do I do with all this extra time I got? (Time I got) Sink into the couch The drugs don't work, I found When it's all that you know How do you not self-destruct? I'm homesick from living with myself Made an exit plan, but I left it on the shelf I've been so obsessed with romanticizing death I know how the story ends But how do you live when you don't wanna die anymore? How do you live when you don't wanna die anymore? When your head feels like a cage Just try to not self-medicate That awful sound inside your brain That's telling you it's all a waste When you can't numb or kill the pain Just call your friends, they feel the same Don't keep it in, you'll go insane How do you live when you don't wanna die anymore?