Where Am I Going

Uh, where am I going? Where am I? Where the hell am I? Yo, it's ill Yo, my wife's tired of fucking me Life tries ducking me Luckily, I find 'em just at the right time Mac in my right arm, tequila bottle in my left arm Like Christion, watching my life go Can't do myself in Wolves in the night yo, hell's men Two revolvers, I can let 12 spin, hop in my Benz Push it to the limit, buck-sixty, who wit' me? My Cris', two L's, twisted blunts and inner conscience Telling me that I ain't shit No matter how much cash I sit wit' Still gotta ask the Lord for forgiveness My precious baby girl came like forty nights of rain To replenish my adolescent brain Blessed be her name, before her birth, I was insane So I drive to cool the pressure down, delay the pain I ate from these poisonous, fucked up streets Tasted larceny, it was sweet, I starved for more to eat Though I took, that was to live, hope God will forgive As odd as it is, the more I gain the harder it is To maintain, bitches playin' games Niggas snitchin', I ain't saying names But y'all niggas better watch how y'all slang Lost so many close niggas Drunk, almost crashed, I'm going too fast Highway patrol will just flash Lights in my rearview If they stop me, I hope they lock me Instead they speed ahead Yo, nigga, watch me I'm drunk by myself, gun under my seat I don't want none of my peeps caught up in none of my beef I'ma ride to the end of the road if I have to Praying no car speeds by for me to crash to Steering wheel in my hand, trying to hold it steady Anything in my way is dead 'Cause that's the way I feel, I am already When I'm drunk by myself, alone in the zone Drunk by myself Heard niggas hate me, but I hated too once Been in the shoes of a Wolf in the night when he hunts For every shell niggas bust, we bust at ourselves Can't tell these niggas nothing though Bullets wake 'em up well Take 'em to hell Stick up niggas once ran up on me My decadent lifestyle attracted sharks on me I ain't your mark, homie It's hard to look straight, my foot on the brake Spilling my bottle, not even shook of the Jakes Could hardly look both ways Put out the haze, blurry vision Think about the time in my life before I was in television Hella women, jealous niggas up in my vision Since we all hood niggas, expect kilos But what they not seeing is police expect RICO Only if I could take care of everybody, intoxicated Windows up, blastin' A.C., going wherever instinct takes me I hate it when I'm like this The bottle's my accomplice I'm drunk by myself, gun under my seat I don't want none of my peeps caught up in none of my beef Yo, I'll ride to the end of the road, if I have to Praying no car speeds by for me to crash to Steering wheel in my hand, I try to hold it steady Anything in my way is dead 'Cause that's the way I feel I am already When I'm drunk by myself, alone in the zone Drunk by myself The reason that I want to be alone Tired of all the things that went wrong That would have went right if I would have did it on my own Take another swig The more I drink, the more I think bad thoughts Fake friends who hung around, who wanna bring you down Not knowing who to trust, rumors about niggas coming through Supposedly to shoot at us, not knowing what was true Or what to believe, that's why I'm on the low lately Choosing a Henny bottle over a friend, driving again To keep my mind off that weak shit There's love through it all Things to live for I swerve, almost crash into a wall Think about the good, find myself laughing Turn the cell off, no way to be reached Know I'm near my crib Tryna see my way through the streets Reminded of the positive, I take my drunk ass home Start to feeling out of it, can't wait to get out of this whip Bring my ass to the crib, I'm tired When I'm drunk by myself, gun under my seat I don't want none of my peeps caught up in none of my beef I'ma ride to the end of the road if I have to Praying no car speeds by for me to crash to Steering wheel in my hand, trying to hold it steady Anything in my way is dead 'Cause that's the way I feel, I am already When I'm drunk by myself, all alone in the zone Drunk by myself