The Last Drag

Getting off drugs is so easy When you're not really on them But everyone thinks you're on them And those same people think they're gonna save you So I'm on my way to redemption And I'm hoping to be be forgiven I'm really so fuckin sorry But first I'm gonna throw myself the best detox party This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox And I'll cry if I want to This is my detox And I'll get high if I want to This is my detox Don't call it a vacation I'm gonna detox through retoxification This is my metox Cuz it's all about me Where is my pillbox? Need a few oxy This is my dеtox And I'll cry if I want to This is my detox And I'll get high if I want to This is my detox And I'll liе if I want to This is my detox I can do it without you Whatever is broken I can glue it without you This is my detox I'll get high if I want to Cuz this is my detox This is my detox (this is my detox) This is my detox (this is my detox) This is my detox (this is my detox) This is my detox (this is my detox) This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox A pool powder party just before I get sick And then a Mandy Mitchell brunch and a lithium picnic A dozen of dommes, a few erotic dancers Don't ask me the questions if you don't want the answers I already told you that I'm not the one cheating Sex is not the same as an intimate beating This is my detox I'll do whatever I want to Cuz this is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox I'll feel nothing as I take my last drag Snort the biggest pile And put my head in a plastic bag I don't wanna die, I just wanna disappear I thought I was so transparent but clearly I'm so unclear No one understands me, I doubt they ever will So I'll stay on the powder, the drink, and the pain pill Get my shit in order and sign my last will and testament With resentment for the past forty and five years I knew it was over and done for When they stopped picking up the phone Only your oldest and best friends can make you feel so alone If I wasn't told it, so many times I never would have thought That it's not really a lie If you never get caught I had an addiction from years of affliction More than occasional minor and major abrasions Dispunktual made up equations That never made sense to a mathematician Not an adult, an experienced kid on the spectrum Who found a plectrum And made it a scalpel for cutting his skin like virgin vinyl Posing suicidal This is my detox This is what I deserve This is drilling a hole in the most sensitive nerve And I don't really want it But I want how it makes me Love the terrible places it takes me I love how it breaks me Cuz now I'm only happy when I'm broken When I'm cokin' When someone's choking me out How are you supposed to rehab and rehabilitate How can you detox from pure uncut hate? This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox (I'm through) This is my detox From you