dread

I look into the mirror, all I'm seeing is a skeleton I keep losing weight, so they got me taking medicine I can't go a day without relying on these sedatives Therapy and doctors, I feel like a specimen Every fucking night that I've been laying in my bed Doing all I can to fight the certain sense of dread Feeling like this panic that I have will never end And so I fantasize about that gun up to my head And now these pills got me feeling asleep When I'm awake, can't get away Even when I sleep I feel pain Vivid visions in the past creeping into my brain About to break, I just want to feel like I'm sane And I just want to know what I did Do I deserve this, like why I gotta deal with this shit, man And I just wanna know when it happened When I lost my mind and will I ever truly feel happy, motherfucker I wanna know when the pain stops Walking around with the same thoughts I wanna know when the pain stops Face down, fucked up with the door locked I wanna know when the pain stops Walking around with the same thoughts I wanna know when the pain stops Face down, fucked up with the door locked I've been fighting this with everything that I have And I've been trying to separate the good from the bad Well, I can't see an end to all the pain that I face I had to cancel the tour, I couldn't take any more I feel the weight of expectation pressing down on my chest I feel like everybody has their own belief of what's best Meditation, medication, should I pray to a god? I refuse to let this win and be consumed by my thoughts I wanna know when the pain stops I wanna know when the pain stops I wanna know when the pain stops I wanna know when the pain stops I wanna know when the pain stops I wanna know when the pain stops I wanna know when the pain stops I wanna know when the pain stops I wanna know when the pain stops Walking around with the same thoughts I wanna know when the pain stops Face down, fucked up with the door locked I wanna know when the pain stops Walking around with the same thoughts I wanna know when the pain stops Face down, fucked up with the door locked