ruiner

It's the young Edgar Allan spitting live from the basement Do it for the love, give a fuck about the payment If I'm being honest, I don't know what I'm chasing Need a space to place my thoughts and the songs, the location I'm fucking sick of writing all these sad songs But I'm just being real, it's how I feel, word is bond I just wanna let you know you're not alone That I know what it's like when you never leave your home When you can't get out of bed, can't even check your phone Can't even lift your head, like your bones are made of stone When everyone you know is asking why you're feeling low But you can't tell 'em why, 'cause you don't even know I got radio execs tryna say what's best I got pressure coming down, got me overly stressed I got suicidal thoughts floating through my head I got people from the past probably hoping I'm dead Oh no, what's your mama gonna say When I tell her that I broke your heart? It's just things aren't the way that they used to be Oh no, now you're crying on the bathroom floor And I guess it's the end Well, I lost my mind, then I lost my best friend Yeah, so what if I did and what if I didn't? I just wish I wasn't stuck between decisions I just wish I didn't feel like something's missing I just need to get outside this mental prison 3am and I'm stuck in a rut Seems like every time I leave I end up thinking of us I keep fucking with your head like a lobotomy I lost it all and you'll always be a part of me And can you feel the pain when you wake up? Late again and it's dark out I don't even know where it came from Can't escape, got me feeling down I remember days in the hometown Things change when you come around Now they're just memories now Keep feeling up, then I'm feeling down Oh no, what's your mama gonna say When I tell her that I broke your heart? It's just things aren't the way that they used to be Oh no, now you're crying on the bathroom floor And I guess it's the end Well, I lost my mind, then I lost my best friend I lost my best friend I lost my best friend I lost my best friend I lost my best friend