[Verse 1]
Holding back the tears
In the battlefield like, "don't nobody care?"
My brudda got killed I had to soldier that for years
I got shanked since then I had to roll without the fear
My nigga switched sides like he don't know I prepared
He tasted the pain when I showed him I was clear
Upset there women stare I know it's not fair couldn't care less fam I was broke picking up the pieces
I was raised in the flames but I praise Jеsus
Said division but they didn't wanna dream it
Took bare Ls matе I feel no feelings
Somehow stay paid never been a dope dealer
My niggas threw a party in the park and held a meeting
I ain't worried about nuttin' just make sure the girls are eating
My gang's fully governed God's the only one above us
One main rule is don't ever disrespect your brudda
[Verse 2]
Holding back the tears
Help another brother I've been holding back for years
New bruddas moving like they've known a man for years
Life got cold I had to open up my ears
Older man are folding man I know that man are scared
Suttin' got broke and when I spoke another prayer
Told a man to poke a man the joker never dared
Joker's been trying hard but I don't feel it
A brudda tried to emulate me you couldn't be dis
I could never ever be weak I been the realest
I'll lick your head off your neck clean for no reason
Enemies see me in the flesh and start cheesin'
Everything I've been through has led to my season
Deathdate for everyone for hates I done seen it
Handsome, and I'm supernaturally appealing
Every time I open up my mouth it's straight healing
[Verse 3]
Holding back the tears
Yeah I'm still a soldier but I'm holding back the tears
Niggas been focused on my progress like it's theirs
Hearts been broken man I hope somebody hears
What d'you know about holding onto prayers
Fighting with your own mind moaning in your ears
I just go about along without my peers
Everybody says a lot but they don't mean it
Teach a man your future plan and man will start stealing
Leave a man to be a man it's naturally revealing
Don't tell your vision to a man who can't believe that man are sleeping
I hit hard no chance to peep it
You'll get a beatin' mistaking my love for weakness even when I never had it made sure the gang's eating (made sure)
I've been known for that for years
Fully certified holding back the tears
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