Upside Down

[Verse 1:] I give a fuck about a fan, I write lyrics for me I leak my own shit, so you people can hear it for free So let me make this next statement as clear as can be Listen close, because on me it's getting scary to sleep I'm close to the edge, so if I get exposed to the lead It's like a fucking dictionary just explodes in my head Soon as I open my meds, verses get openly said This beat is hopeless, but only til my focus is dead I get high with a verse, I only cry cuz it works If I'm alive and it hurts, then how could dying be worse? I'm probably cursed, because if you hear the lines I rehearse And then rewind, there's a total different rhyme in reverse Attracted to hell, it's like I'm trapped in a cell Asking for help because you'll see me there attacking myself There's no cure for the sickness here, the shit you hear Is fear man this kid's just weird [Hook x2] I'm so upside down, can't tell which way's up right now I've been spinning round and round, upside down [Verse 2] I'm in search of a light, I need a purpose in life The pain strength determines what kinda verses I write They say I'm sick, but the sickness only worsens at night So you can be the judge on what kind of person I'm like Confusing what's right, I rap about abusing my wife But if you ask the girl I love she'll say I'm usually nice Truly polite and the only time that she knew me to fight Will be when I'm pissed, clenched fists, start abusing a mic And so they call me deranged, but that would hardly explain The reason what goes on in my brain, goes on in my brain So thank god I became, somebody smarter, insane Through all this horrible pain, and I have my father to blame I can't believe as a seed I was even conceived Through your nuts, this is nuts, how the fuck can this be? Because I'm nothing like you, and you're nothing like me I'm the blood that I bleed I give a fuck if you breathe [Hook x2] [Verse 3] I gotta get my life on track, that's what Brent said But life is worse bro I envy that you been dead Really, I kinda hope I get the same shot If they don't make the train stop we'll be in the same spot So I'm a nothing in life, yeah you're right, you're so perfect what the fuck is it like? Must've been nice growing up without a struggle a fight What a delight and that's the reason that we're nothing alike Because you're pretty and you're perfect, but imagery is worthless The ugly that's inside makes you shitty on the surface At least that I know that I'll be living for a purpose And not just glamour and jewels, you're living for a purchase So was you thinking about your kid or what? Because once she got you liquored up, and said she wants to give it up It seem like you ain't give a fuck The devil wearing lingerie and if you really wanna play Then that's the price you gotta pay and that's all that I gotta say [Hook]