Hideous

I'm ugly I'm up and down right now, I'm down and bloody But I don't feel as though I've been unlucky I have people in my life that really love me Caught my reflection in your eye Now you've seen me from both sides Am I hideous? My tears naturally dry On exposure to the light Am I hideous? Oh, I hide Though the company at home can be unkind Yet I live alone and refuse to go outside How dare I feel so lonely When I'm giving all my time to a man who doesn't know me Why don't you leave me in the dirt? That I've been sick and I'm perverse Oh, I'm hideous If I've had you at your worst It was easy in return Oh, I'm hideous Follow my voice Sweet nature boy Just to keep you safe Listen for me Be bright, have trust Just be willing to be loved Radical honesty Might set me free If it makes me hideous Been living with HIV Since 17 Am I hideous?