Conditioned

[Intro] In my mind, I cried so much time for help I felt like I was drowning in a, on an empty shelf I'm so cold, I don't know, know what to do Couldn't get up on my feet and I Couldn't find nothing to eat now [Verse 1] Y'all know they see the fame, but they don't see I see the rain Yeah, I've been through the flames, I'm conditioned to this pain (Gang) I'm conditioned to this pain, conditioned to this way of living Some shit will never be the same Now I don't need no help, I grab my pride and place it back on the shelf Played the game the best way with the cards that we was dealt (Ayy) I was raised the best way, with both 'rents in the house The way they brought us kids up, shit wasn't meant to go south We always knew what to do, the only question was how To the ones that left us boys reeling, bet they regretting it now Ayy, see, don't ever see the pain I hold Deep inside my feelings, what I had to go through stained my soul Sipping syrup, popping Perks, I even took Panadol Hit the turf and got to work, turned me to an animal [Chorus] I'm so cold, I don't know what to do Couldn't get up on my feet, man Couldn't find nothing to eat, man (Yeah) [Verse 2] Cold-hearted so my feelings are numb Cold sweats and nightmares from all the shit that I done And the shit that I witnessed growing up on the block Learning from my mistakes is what turned me into a boss But how many times did they kick me down and I got back up on my feet? They done see me changing my way, but don't mistake me, boy, like I'm sweet If I see the boys on the road, I'm still hopping out of that Jeep And I'm gon' stand tall, do anything 'cause I ain't bowing down to no sheep (Yeah, yeah) [Bridge] They try to drag me through the mud, but I'm just thanking God all my life Fuck what's running wrong, I did what I did to survive [Verse 3] Yeah, listen I got youngers like disciples So they're chopping when I make the call Used to love the beef, now it's rare, you could say it's raw Praise be to the Lord, yeah, my rocker changed my hands for war But please forgive this life I'm living, now I'm breaking laws 'Cause we got stuck up in that cycle In and out of prison, we was drilling on our rivals Saying that I'm quitting, then repeat it like Rosado Said it's beefing on the sidewalk Got my hand on the steel and one on the Bible, listen [Outro] I'm so cold, I don't know what to do, yeah Couldn't get up on my feet now Couldn't find nothing to eat now