So It Seems

[Verse 1: P Money] They don't ask to say I'm okay I just say "so it seems" Behind doors, tearing up Consistently so it seems This ain't got a chorus, G This one here is one for me I've had thoughts I can't repeat This is me at war with me This is why I can't retreat Lost my nan last week Never had a chance to speak People tryin' to give me grief, so I ain't had a chance to grieve Too much relies on me Inside I'm still learning, but outside's a masterpiece Even if I part with you, you are still a part of me Instead of trying to start on me Why not make a start with me I ain't know the sayings well I'm calm with karma G Temptation don't phase me, I know how the dark can be 30 second stroll with me, have you in your thoughts for week I've battled the battles but no one's ever fought for me I learn from the scars I've got Nothing was taught to me So how can you say I'm okay when you don't talk to me [Chorus: Zoe Kypri, Zoe Kypri & Choir] Oh, so it seems That I hold it all with ease Doesn′t mean it ain't heavy But behind these eyes it ain′t what it seems Oh so it seems That I hold it all with ease Doesn't mean it ain′t heavy (Heavy) But behind these eyes it ain't what is seems [Verse 2: P Money] Yo Sittin' here thinking ′bout Things no-one thinks about Like how am I really doing? You don't know the ins and outs Life is so different now You ask me "different how"? Never got to say goodbye Really wish I did it now Hooked on this rollercoaster When will someone fish me out Instead of tryin' to solve problems We keep pushing things around I think I understand Ain't just ′cause I′ve been around It's ′cause I've been the one laughing And I′ve also been the clown Happy, yeah so it seems Everyone is loving me Lots to keep me company Money and the company But the saddest part of this Is not the people judging me Or the label bumping me I tell you what fucks with me It's because no matter what We focus on the bad things Even when it′s outweighed by the good That's what's bugging me You ain′t heard enough of me ′Cause I don't show enough of me I wish I had more time I wish there was another me [Chorus: Zoe Kypri, Choir] Oh so it seems Oh Oh Oh I hold it all with ease Behind these eyes are my fears I hear you calling me And I′m coming back to you You said you'd never leave So I′m coming back to you