Loser

I feel like a loser when you give me that look I feel like an idiot holding that book I feel like a loser when I'm crossing my legs I don't even know what I thought you might say I felt so invisible when I was a kid I felt so embarrassed asking for it Please just look at me, please just look away I don't even know what I thought I was saying I need a little male validation I need to get another diploma I have no idea what I'm good for I don't know if I matter anymore She won't kiss you and you're so mad but None of you fvckers would make a good dad Look at my body, don't look at my face Please don't leave me, please stay away I have no idea what I was trying to say I feel like a loser when you say my name I feel so empty when you offer me praise Maybe when it's right, I'll feel what I'm meant to feel Maybe I'm ruined and true love isn't real When I was invisible, I felt like a creep I was haunting everybody that I could see Now that I'm the haunted one, I still feel the shame It's not as bad, but it's still part of the game I want some asshole to tell me I'm pretty I wish the internet could actually love me I wish that I enjoyed the attention I wish that I needed nothing from no one She won't fvck you and you're so mad but None of you bastards would make a good dad Look at my body, don't look at my face Please don't leave me, please stay away I have no idea what I wanted to say I have no idea if you were listening anyway I have no idea what I was trying to say