[Verse 1]
I never enjoyed the surprise birthdays
So, naturally, I hate the opposite surprise
And you can imagine, I'm hurting the worst way
Your family's loss is heaven's gain, oh, that's right
[Chorus]
But, uh, I keep falling down that hole
One that I can't control
You are gone, send a text, you don't respond, so
Not tryna be selfish, no
But can you answer my heart from heaven?
'Cause I got questions
[Verse 2]
I won't sit here and call you selfish
But could you tell that you would leave us in hell? (In hell)
I can't say where anyone else is
'Cause life is so cold, it's only saying, "Oh, well"
[Refrain]
"Is this a joke?" a better question than "Why?"
You ain't want us to know, 'cause you had man-type pride
[Chorus]
Also, too much on your mind
Addresses, numbers, times
Your obsession that nobody questioned
It feels like we're all blind 'cause we didn't see the signs
11:11, a new start in heaven
[Refrain]
"Is this a joke?" a better question than "Why?"
You ain't want us to know, you kept your plan airtight
[Outro]
(Was it your man-type pride?)
If you were upset, you would never let us see
That's when she's hurt
But she would never let you know it (Let you know it)
Never show it, no matter what, she stayed smiling
(Man, I'm crying)
No, I'm not upset
You think that this shit is funny?
Laughing out loud, yeah, bet you're rolling over (Rolling over)
Showing God that I'm ugly-face cryin'
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