Jackson, You Are Dying

I think I let the "one cigarette Away from death" look Get the best of me And I know it shows My head to my toes But it's all I know In my skin, I scream Wake up at two and can barely sleep 'Cause I'm up on my phone, checking Twitter and memes I'm wasting my money, but can barely eat That person in the mirror isn't me And all my friends say, "Jackson, you are dying" Get yourself together, baby Are you even trying? But I won't decay My mother knows I'm lying Get yourself together, baby Are you even trying? I think I let Just one bad night's rest Take everything left As I pace around my room And I'm scratching on my walls And I'm screaming, "fuck it all" The six-pack on my nightstand Just to sleep, I drink them all I need medication for sleep-deprivation There's blood in my eyes and it wants to talk It says, "spare the good and give in, and let go, and give up" Just taste the chemicals I'm nothing, I'm hopeless, I'm numb to the focus The clock on my phone ticks, cyclical I'll see you in a day or two or three Just know, I'm far from feeling me And all my friends say, "Jackson, you are dying" Get yourself together, baby Are you even trying? But I won't decay My mother knows I'm lying Get yourself together, baby Are you even trying? And all my friends say, "we don't want you dying" It's not too late to save yourself Just wants to see you trying But I won't decay Mom, just know I'm trying Get yourself together, baby Are you even trying?