Shy Heart

"Be yourself," they say, "But be assertive" "Hold your ground, but do not be unkind" I have sought to be both lamb and lion Heartache is the thing I tend to find Can I only have what I can capture? Will I be unheard unless I shout? Clamor overwhelms me, and I wonder What is there to be so loud about? Many are the musings of my shy heart Though precious few are spoken out aloud How I wish to wrap them up in confidence and style And send them out like magic through the crowd Then everyone would listen, and I wouldn't be afraid I wouldn't shrink away and disappear I don't want them to worship me or care that much at all I only want to know they know I'm here I can wear a mask of pluck and power But it never says what I intend Words become like scissors in my keeping And friendships are so difficult to mend I don't want to shout above the babel I'm not even sure what I would say Maybe just "Excuse me, could we maybe Be a little quieter today?" Many are the musings of my shy heart Though precious few are spoken out aloud How I wish to wrap them up in confidence and style And send them out like magic through the crowd Everyone would listen, and I wouldn't be afraid I wouldn't shrink away and disappear I don't want them to worship me or care that much at all I only want to know they know I'm here I only want to know they know I'm here Part of me has things she wants and wishes Part of me is worried she is wrong Part of me is busy masquerading As a girl whose pieces get along I don't mean to come across as distant I don't think it adds to my mystique I just find it difficult conversing And think an awful lot before I speak Many are the musings of my shy heart Though precious few are spoken out aloud How I wish to wrap them up in confidence and style And send them out like magic through the crowd Everyone would listen, and I wouldn't be afraid I wouldn't shrink away and disappear I don't want them to worship me or care that much at all I only want to know they know I'm here I only want to know they know I'm here