Fear of a Blank Planet

Sunlight coming through the haze No gaps in the blind, to let it inside The bed is unmade, some music still plays TV, yeah, it's always on A flicker on the screen, a movie actress screams I'm basking in the shit, flowing out of it I'm stoned in the mall again Terminally bored, shuffling round the stores And shoplifting is getting so last year's thing Xbox is a god to me A finger on the switch, my mother is a bitch My father gave up ever trying to talk to me Don't try engaging me The vaguest of shrugs, the prescription drugs You'll never find, a person inside My face is mogadon Curiosity, has given up on me I'm tuning out desires, the pills are on the rise How can I be sure I'm here? The pills that I've been taking confuse me I need to know that someone sees that There's nothing left, I simply am not here I'm through with pornography The acting is lame, the action is tame Explicitly dull, arousal annulled Your mouth should be boarded up Talking all day, with nothing to say Your shallow proclamations, all misinformation My friend says he wants to die He's in a band, they sound like Pearl Jam The clothes are all black, the music is crap In school I don't concentrate And sex is kinda fun but just another one Of all the empty ways of using up a day How can I be sure I'm here? The pills that I've been taking confuse me I need to know that someone sees that There's nothing left, I simply am not here Bipolar disorder Can't deal with the boredom Bipolar disorder Can't deal with the boredom You don't try to be liked You don't mind You feel no sun You steal a gun To kill time You're somewhere, you're nowhere You don't care You catch the breeze You still the leaves So now where?