My House

It's my house My house But these demons keep on talkin' to me I need out Right now I know That life can be a bitch So try'na better myself It's my house My house But these demons keep on talkin' to me I need out Right now I know That life can be a bitch So try'na better myself I been dealin' with these voices, every night Become accustomed, but that comes with a price I'm holdin' on, so dearly, another fight Don't really care who's wrong, or who is right I'm just lookin' for an answer, God, please We've all gone through addiction, we all suffer My biggest problem, has got to be my OCD I'm trembling, cold, find it hard to recover I just wanna feel a breeze, like the summer time Get rid of all these demons, in my mind Find a girl that loves, unconditional She don't judge, on point, like a decimal It's so easy, to reach for another bottle But so difficult to confront, on your problems Prob'ly why we run away, but it won't solve 'em The next day, got us fallin', like it's fuckin' autumn I hope you know, ya' not alone on this wicked path People come and go, and feelings, they just don't last Always gonna be a reason, to keep goin' Swim good, swim good, Frank Ocean Hard wired, lookin' for a safe haven Might bend, won't break, when these walls caving I've become so hollow, like a tin-man Contemplating, as I'm starin' at the ceilin' fan It's my house My house But these demons keep on talkin' to me I need out Right now I know That life can be a bitch So try'na better myself It's my house My house But these demons keep on talkin' to me I need out Right now I know That life can be a bitch So try'na better myself Wanna know what scares me, the most? The look of regret, on the people growin' old It motivates me, to push harder, and grow At any given point, this life could be gone We self sabotage, shootin' up our cortisol Got us anxious, depressed, or we're pissed off Made it to day six, then got withdrawals I'm givin' in, again, I hit another pitfall We all got bad habits, that we need to break A vicious cycle, at times, that we can't escape When in doubt, you should probably just go for it Born a sinner, so I always pray to my Lord Ungrateful, never really satisfied I need to go through bad shit, just to write I'd rather be alone, than to go and socialize The thought of that, quite scary, like I'm Pennywise Drivin' down the highway, music blarin' Try'na find my way, but it's not apparent Don't wanna feel right now, think I'm done carin' Call it selfish, at this point, I'm not sharin' Unh, why is this world so cruel? Yeah, why was I played like a fool? It'll all make sense, though, eventually 'Til then, try'na level up, mentally It's my house My house But these demons keep on talkin' to me I need out Right now I know That life can be a bitch So try'na better myself It's my house My house But these demons keep on talkin' to me I need out Right now I know That life can be a bitch So try'na better myself