Scorpion Hill

Up on Scorpion Hill, watching life Passing me by in the pale moonlight And I sat there forever, three sheets to the wind It's not helping my case, the state that I'm in, but It's not how they told you My intentions were good I was just bursting apart like the end of the ark Holding on to whatever I could A square of light moves its way through the empty room Across the stained yellow carpet Like a ghost of myself in the afternoon Haunting my basement apartment, I Looked in to the mirror Hanging behind my door The glass was cracked and the man staring back He don't look like me anymore And if the world is gonna burn Everyone should get a turn to light it up Down and out, I've been on the rocks I've been having some pretty dark thoughts I like them a lot (whoo!) Time and time again, well I've tried and failed To get my act together And I'll admit lately things really went off the rails I know that you deserve better Then in the morning As I was boarding the Commuter train to work The boss was calling, he said There's been cutbacks, and I'm Sorry you're the first And If I can't support the two of us How can I support a third? Down and out, I've been on the rocks I've been having some pretty dark thoughts And I'm on the brink Falling deep into debt Falling deep into drink I can drown those regrets I don't have to think Now I'm working the night shift Asleep at the wheel I was bursting apart like a flame from a spark Thinking, "Jesus, this can't be for real" My sweat soaked mattress Corner of the room Cigarettes and matches in the fading afternoon And a picture of my kid Yeah, he's smiling, it's the first day of school She said "I found the gun, it was buried beneath Piles of clothes in the room where your son sleeps And I can't pretend to know how this will end"