Smiling on the Surface

Am I telling myself the truth? I'm used to pretending to be strong and clueless Am I doing this right by you? I seem to be coming off as wrong and ruthless Am I telling myself the truth about what I don't know? It makes me lose my self-control I'm staring through the eyes of someone else So I'll keep on smiling on the surface Hiding my nerves behind the curtain I'm caught up in an empty room Filled with second thoughts and gloom Am I changing my mind again? All this indecision makes me shift my focus Is the tension my only friend? Anxiety holds my hand when life gets hopeless Am I telling myself the truth about what I don't know? It makes me lose my self-control I'm staring through the eyes of someone else So I'll keep on smiling on the surface Hiding my nerves behind the curtain I'm caught up in an empty room Filled with second thoughts and gloom Am I telling myself the truth about my Self-esteem and how others place their worth in me? I'm staring through the eyes of someone else Am I telling myself the truth? So I'll keep on smiling on the surface Hiding my nerves behind the curtain I'm caught up in an empty room Filled with second thoughts and gloom Yeah, I'll keep on smiling on the surface (Am I telling myself the truth?)