I Was Only Joking [Early Take 4]

Ever since I was a kid at school I messed around with all the rules Apologised then realised I'm not different after all Me and the boys thought we had it sussed Valentinos all of us My dad said we looked ridiculous But boy we broke some hearts In and out of jobs, running free Waging war with society Dumb blank faces stare back at me But nothing ever changed Promises made in the heat of the night Creeping home before it got too light I wasted all that precious time And blamed it on the wine I was only joking my dear Looking for a way to hide my fear What kind of fool was I I could never win Never found a compromise Collected lovers like butterflies Illusions of that grand first prize Are slowly wearing thin Susie baby you were good to me Giving love unselfishly But you took it all too seriously I guess it had to end I was only joking my dear Looking for a way to hide my fear What kind of fool was I I could never win Now you ask me if I'm sincere That's the question that I always fear Verse seven is never clear But I'll tell you what you want to hear I try to give you all you want But giving love is not my strongest point If that's the case it's pointless going on I'd rather be alone 'Cause what I'm doing must be wrong Pouring my heart out in a song Owning up for prosperity For the whole damn world to see Quietly now while I turn a page Act one is over without costume change The principal would like to leave the stage The crowd don't understand