(how could i be)honest?

can't fake the old days there's another way but another haze awaits i can't just let myself go 自分だって 救えなくて 無駄だって やめられなくて 泥まみれ だから見つけて欲しいの help me i wish i could be bleeding so you could see the pain you could feel the pain inside me waiting im always waiting for something something out of reach something that will never come back how could i be honest? cuz i just broke my promise in this place where everything happened how could i be honest when i don't know myself? overthinking's making me so helpless driving through Chicago then something felt so alive i wanted to dive the same thing again and again im always drowning in the pain but i know i can't get over this now help me i wish i could be bleeding so you could see the pain you could feel the pain inside me waiting im always waiting for something something out of reach something that will never come back how could i be honest? cuz i just broke my promise in this place where everything happened how could i be honest when i don't know myself? overthinking's making me so helpless take me home it's getting cold here the lights don't glow the same since you disappeared take me home it's getting cold here the lights don't glow the same since you disappeared