I'm Different Now (Live in Topanga)

[Verse 1] I intellectualize my feelings Then I get high to drown 'em out I know the hurt is part of healing Wish you were here to hold me now All I can feel is your indifference Back then I thought that I deserved it There's nothin' I could do to fix it I guess, I'm still learnin' how to live with it [Chorus] If I was still an optimist I would just move on from this But I, I'm different now Forgave your broken promises Yeah, I loved you through all of it But I, I'm different now Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way 'Cause I, I'm different now [Verse 2] Drove by your house again last weekend Remember when it felt like home I think a part of me's still in there Do you ever feel my ghost? I only see you in my nightmares Sometimes I wish that I could haunt you What if I'm always gonna be scared? What if I'm always gonna want you? [Chorus] If I was still an optimist I would just move on from this But I, I'm different now Forgave your broken promises Yeah, I loved you through all of it But I, I'm different now Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way 'Cause I, I'm different now [Bridge] I'm sorry that I wasn't older Were we ever really friends? I think I'm finally glad it's over It still hurts but it hurts less [Chorus] If I was still an optimist I would just move on from this But I, I'm different now Forgave your broken promises Yeah, I loved you through all of it But I, I'm different now Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way 'Cause I, I'm different now [Outro] Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way 'Cause I, I'm different now