hold on

[Chorus] I'll use you as a warning sign That if you talk enough sense then you lose your mind I got further than I thought I could But I miss you more than I thought I would [Verse 1] I been dreaming of dying for so long Not got the strength to hold on To a life that only deserts me, don't think that I'll make it to thirty All I got is this wasted potential, don't know why it's got it's hands round my throat So I take out a pen and paper and I write them a note "I'm sorry I'm leaving, and if you need a reason I ain't got the strength no more to fight this war or to battle with these demons I guess they won, I'm sorry, I'm done" Kid you don't me but I swear I know you All of the things that you been through well I been through them too I know every battle that you fought and lost in your head And I know what happens when you finally go and get help Seen you become someone else, you got a future with things that you do I've seen your family wish I could show them to you You gotta promise me you'll never give up 'Cause you ain't fighting for you, no, you're fighting for us [Chorus] I'll use you as a warning sign That if you talk enough sense then you lose your mind I got further than I thought I could But I miss you more than I thought I would [Verse 2] No, you don't know what I've done Unforgivable things when I'm young I've driven drunk, I've stolen money for drugs I broke the heart of somebody who was just trying to love me And she was screaming I was leaving so detached from my feelings Cutting all family ties, cutting into my skin just to feel alive Cut another line with another card that I maxed out, till I pass out I don't wanna be here now, so don't tell me it's true 'Cause I've been lied to by everyone, but I can't be by you [Chorus] I'll use you as a warning sign That if you talk enough sense then you lose your mind I got further than I thought I could But I miss you more than I thought I would [Outro] There's a family pattern, a reason it happened You were only a kid when they did what they did You weren't protected, got rejected, and then you got abandoned It made you feel like you don't matter but it ain't true Re-enacting patterns of attachment, ain't your fault that it happened But now you, you gotta promise me you'll hold on So you can come back here one day and write us this song